It's good that the weather has cooled down, I can work in the garden during the day again, tis much better than sitting inside under the air-con with/wanting to do nothing.

In other news, I had an unexpectedly positive telephone call this week, which is, I'm sure, going to surprise the pants off someone - couldn't happen to a more deserving person.

Still feeling as though there's no point to anything, though I seem to have managed to scramble up the pit wall a little, maybe it was being outside working in the garden that did it.
I look forward to the future with no hopes, no dreams, no goals and wonder why bother. In some ways I'm better off than another who has goals and is achieving them, but gaining no sense of satisfaction from having done so. I can't decide which of us is worse off.

I dunno, maybe I'm just weird, but it would seem to me that if you don't want to be portayed as bastard then the best thing to do would be to stop being a bastard ...???

I am rather 'chuffed' today - my daughter is in the school 'It's Academic' team and they went for their first filmed session today - they came second which means they are in the semi-finals, which is filmed tomorrow!

I'm also now the mum of a 16 year old - eeeeekkkkk!

Title: QaF Stole my thoughts!
Rofl, in the Queer as Folk episode on the Monday following my post below Justin said almost to the word something I wrote ... "mean what they says at the moment they make the promise", couldn't believe my ears!
In other news, it's 1am and I've just finished mopping the floors and vaccuuming (sp?), I was going to clean the bathroom before I go to bed but I think I should just go to bed ...I don't like weekends anymore, especially when the kids aren't here, so much time to get rid of.

Also watched 'On the Beach' on TV tonight (in between vacuuming under the couch cushions .. sigh, still find myself doing 'manic cleaning'), a movie right up the alley of someone I used to know.. everyone dies at the end, the children, the goodies and the baddies. Guess for me it just highlighted how bad and lonely it will be to be alone at the end :(

think now and then of the book we used to talk about writing - about our life/lifestyle, because we thought it was so good (rofl!)

Maybe I should write it, and another - How NOT to Leave Your Partner.

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Title: Amazing.. (well not really)
Why is it that some peoples' words/promises/stated intentions are so unsubstantial and fleeting?

Like someone who says that they will always honour and repay a debt to you, but when that debt is called upon (in the timeframe originally agreed) they try every trick in the book to get out of it.

Once again I've had it proven to me, as it has been to others many times, that some peoples' promises are as fleeting as the seconds through which our lives pass, and are not to be trusted. They might mean what they says at the moment they make the promise, but when that moment has gone so has the good intent. Where is the integrity? - there appears to be none. And they wonder why people mistrust them/don't believe what they say...?

Perhaps it's in part because they want the world to work 'their' way, and the only way to make that happen is tell each person in front of them what they (that person) wants/needs to hear - problems occur however when what is said is contrary to what others are told, or there is actually no intent/truth/committment to what is being said. Lies/mistruths in these situations invariably come back to haunt the one who has spoken them. They have no-one except themselves to blame, and whilst they are aware of this they often seek to blame others for the results/consequences when they are revealed for what they are.

I know now that it is folly to have faith, trust and believe someone who has been exposed as lying to me once, for they will invariably do so again. Yet another 'lesson' I've been taught that others would do well to take heed of.

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