"One ping only"

Well I did it, sent 'one ping only' .. said "hello", didn't ask to meet, didn't ask any questions, didn't ask how he was, how things were going; just said hello; finally giving in to my gut, which had been telling me for well over a week to do it, so I did.

No matter that he contacted me out 'out of the blue' and asked to meet; the simple act of me saying 'hello' 'out of the blue' and for no reason caused 'lots of problems' .... hmm gee now let me guess who it actually caused problems for - not him is my guess, but for someone else :( The Gestapo would seem to be at it again; who he can and cannot have contact with, even though it's been said a number of times that he *can* have contact with me.

Or maybe it's only OK when it's on *his* terms ... ie only when *he* wants to have contact; that would seem true to form.

And of course he just thinks out to cause trouble - wanting to cause him problems; shit, as if I haven't had enough opportunities to do that if that was my intent!

I don't know why I wanted to say hello, it was just 'there', just something I needed to do. Didn't want to meet with him, (as he asked me to do only a few months ago). Just wanted/needed to say hello, I don't even understand why for myself.

Perhaps it was because of seeing his mum? hmm no, the 'one ping only' post was before that, so I was feeling it before then. Maybe to see if he was right... if enough water had passed under the bridge for us to be able to talk without having a fight? ...well I guess we didn't fight, did we, just traded a few messages.

Seems her suspicious mindset has rubbed off on him :( and now he doubts what folk say to him.