Safe-r For Now

Security
Well those sods that keep breaking in/trying to break in here will have a more difficult time next time they visit. Added bonus is that the cat will have a harder time escaping from the house now too, especially with finer weather coming and we'll be wanting to have just the screen door open.
I feel bad that I've probably just 'pushed' the problem on to someone else who can't afford security, but what else am I supposed to do? In a way I hope that's what happens rather than them trying more forceful ways of getting in :( bad thought that one for a woman who is on her own half the time :(
As a single woman security has become a bigger issue for me than before. I feel very vulnerable when here on my own (though it doesn't seem to bother the burglars whether I'm on my own or not). I still have a garden stake in my wardrobe, but I'd probably be too scared to use it in fear of having it used against/on me. Hmm maybe I should take the mobile phone upstairs every night so I have quick access to call someone if something bad happens.
I wonder what other single women do in regards to security? Ones, that is, that can't afford heavy duty security all around their house, or an alarm system, or a big beefy guy to watch over you. Sometimes I feel like putting a sign on the door that says 'single mother lives here, please rob someone else'.

Cat
The puss is very happy with her new scratching tower (it's far more than a scratching post). Can sit up high and watch over us from the lofty heights, and hide in the hidey holes. And yes, she does actually scratch on it too.

Brain Still Working :(
Pleeeease someone tell me how to turn my brain and heart off :( I wish I were dumb and stupid and had no feelings. Mind you, I guess if that were the case I wouldn't have a lot of the things in my life that I have .. great kids, great ex husband, few but very loyal good friends, house (bit of a love/hate relationship that one - financially, physically, mentally and emotionally), and just about able to meet my financial responsibilites.
I think about him so often every day :( Can't think of a day that I haven't thought about him at least a handful of times, most days it's far more than that. Think about all kinds of things - how is he, is his hair still short, does he have a nice bed to sleep in (other than hers), is he still enduring Leggo Land, does he yet do just whatever he wants when he wants (guess the answer to that is no), has he been building the relationship with his sister like he said he wanted to, does he have many friends, is he lonely, does he still watch lots of movies :), play his music way up loud :), still crash his car, buy clothes *he* likes and is comfortable in, enjoy a bourbon on Friday nights, go to the Breakwater, see Beth, go camping, workout .... too many thoughts.
Don't know why I wanted to say hello so badly. I have no idea whether I wanted anything to happen of it other than to receive a reply; I don't *think* I wanted to see him/meet with him. If he is of the opinion that enough water has gone under the bridge (as he said a few months ago) then why was it so bad that I should want to say a simply hello? I really can't see any reason for the 'problems' he talked about other than a certain third party. Maybe enough water *has* gone under the bridge for him, but not for her. Sad for him if that is the case, means she is still pulling his leash, still needs to control him.
He's been putting effort into web sites, one in particular I think looks pretty good, others are a bit so-so. Still can't spell or proof read .

Self
How am I? Had a real attack of the 'blahs' on the weekend, doing slightly better now - I think getting the screens done has done that. Still very 'down' on myself as a person/personal 'worth'. Don't know how to recover, not really sure that I even want to cos there just seems no point to it.