And Now, Back to Our Regular Program ...

Through the process of publishing the posts today that I had previously kept back, I re-read them.

I am not sitting here thinking 'ohhhh just *wait* until she sees this!'. *I* know this, and that's the only opinion that matters. I am satisfied within myself, having questioned it pretty thoroughly, that I do not post to be nasty, as he thinks. If I did there'd probably be a hell of a lot more things in here for one thing! (He would undoubtedly say to that that I wouldn't be that overt about it, he thinks I'm so underhanded - even though he knows I don't have a devious mind). I think it's good to have questioned it though.

I will post as I need to, as I want to - not be dictated to by others. (I *still* can't believe he would think for a minute that I would let him host my site, after what he did to it before - and that one didn't have a blog! I will not knowingly put myself in a position where he has control over me.)


Of course he has proclaimed, via e-mail, that he was sincere in making that statement on Sunday - but there's no body language in e-mail and like I said, now that he has is aware of his body language when he made that statement, if he *did* say it to me in person again I know I'd wonder whether his body language was faked. There are too many other obvious reasons for him to now 'have' to say that he was sincere (eg to try appease her) for me to be able to believe that it's true.

Other things in there that are the same ol' same ol' - I've been sent these types of e-mails before, they didn't prove true then, and I see no reason why this time will be any different. He could never say why things were going to be different 'this time' with her, so why this time. Maybe he would answer that he means it this time, but he supposedly meant it the other times too?