Body Language

The Body Language thing is still constantly going through my mind.

Why, when making a statement that he seems so desperate for me to believe, and a statement that he has wanted her to believe for nearly 2 years and keeps repeating to her ... why would he not look me in the eye and tell it straight to my face?

It's not as if he was being aloof and weird with me, as he sometimes had been in the past; it was quite relaxed 99% of the time (one specific point at which it wasn't relaxed - when he started to say he thinks I post to be vindicitive and cause trouble). It was quite friendly, there was no hostility (other than that point mentioned above).

Most of the time he was looking at me, near me, around the place, at the table ... but when he said those words - that he wouldn't ask to come back because it's not what he wants to do - he hung his head and said it to the ground between his feet in a very quiet voice. He didn't look anywhere near me/my eyes/my face/my general direction, just looked directly down to the ground.

When he said it, in that way, my intuition wasn't just tingling it was like an enourmous buzzing through my body that focussed my attention on his body language, it was so obviously different to his body language the rest of the evening. I wish I had a video of it cos I'm sure he would deny that he did that, but it's true - he made that statement to his feet. Maybe I was paying particular attention at that time, because of the importance (to me, to her, to him) of what he was saying, but I don't recall him talking to his feet during any of the other parts of the conversation.

If he so wanted me to believe that statement, why didn't he tell it to my face?

(One problem with the blog being public is that now, if he ever makes that statement to me in person again, he probably *will* say it straight to my face, but how will anyone know whether that's natural - as I believe his body language was that night - rather than forced/on purpose because of what he has read here?)

I'm sure he would have told her that he said that to me, but she wasn't there, she didn't see him when he said it.