Thursday, November 25, 2004

My Stupid 'Old' Self has Created Me a Dilemma..

I realised this morning that by restricting what I publish (post-wise) I've created a dilemma for myself ... when do I start publishing all my posts again? (sigh, should have listened to my 'gut' and conscience again, instead of being stupidly compassionate and sympathetic)

The dilemma is this...having not published posts, when do I start publishing all my posts again? When they've stopped/gotten over the fight? But how will I know that, I very much doubt they would tell me. When the one week he asked for 'peace' for is over? And then if he asks for another week of peace? (I'm not sure he really has had peace as they've both been back looking at the blog, both of them at least once every day).

And what if, when I did start publishing all my posts again, they had another fight; I can see the blame for that fight would be laid squarely at my feet. And I'd be asked not to post again; with the frequency with which they fight (oh, sorry that's in an unpublished post) that will be every couple of months. I'd be frightened to post *in case* they had a fight, and why should I be made to feel that way when all three of us know that it's not the blog that is the real problem in their relationship - *that's* what needs fixing/why they should part, not my blog.

Also, by not publishing my posts - by acceding to some degree to his request as I have done - I am showing how that I care for him; that in itself could be causing even further problems (mind you the fact that I care is not new News), but it could be making things worse rather than better.

No, I don't think this 'not posting' thing is a good idea at all.

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