Dispassionate

Am I really dispassionate about all this as I thought I was? Things are certainly churning through my head a lot - I guess that's evidenced by the number of posts I've made - and I have to ask myself what that means.

I don't *feel* upset, or happy or sad, or smug (as he would think); I don't feel anything in particular at all (except about the hoppy spider :(). Maybe that's just the 'zombie' state that has become the norm for me, maybe it's because I've been through this so many times before and it's just the same old stuff again; I don't know, but I don't feel emotional about it, so yeah, the dispassionate comment is still true.

It's just the stuff that's going through my head. Sometimes I think that if I write it down I'll be able to stop thinking about it. Seems to have worked with the biz stuff, hasn't been rattling around in my brain since I wrote it down earlier.




Note to self for future reference: -1 sometime this week before Friday.