He said on that Sunday that he still wanted to be my friend. I asked him why; after all the things he has done and said to me, acted like a bastard to me (his words), the way he has thought about me (that I'm evil and tried to ruin his life - his recent e-mail wasn't the first time he said that); why is it that he still wants to be my friend/friends with me. Maybe I was also asking to try work out the very same question I often ask myself (only thought of that just then)?
He said it's because he missed our conversations, that there were things he couldn't discuss with her, things he couldn't tell her. If she is the sensitive and caring person he says she is then why cannot he have that with her? After two and a half years in a relationship that, he says (later), is so much better than ours, why can't he have those conversations with her, why can't he tell her those things? He said it's because she doesn't understand....... after two and a half years?? I don't get it.
If the life he had 'built' with her was so good, so much better than ours, why did he want me back in it?
I've thought before (long time ago) that after he stopped being my partner (and during the time just prior to that) he became someone other than the person she fell in love with.
Maybe that is true - she says she fell in love with someone but she doesn't know who that is. He says he changed his life and beliefs for her ... I guess what he doesn't/didn't realise is that that's not who she fell in love with, she fell in love with him as he was, back then at the beginning.
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