Queer As Folk

Tonight's episode held yet another 'blast from the past' for me ... Justin says (this is the Canadian version being shown here in Oz) "I thought we had a committment and I'm f***ing sticking to it".

I made a similar statement to him about ohhhh 8 weeks after the crap started (actually it was 4th September, I just checked my journal), told him I realised I'd been expressing my jealousy in inappropriate ways and that I was still committed to our relationship.

Considering the shite he had put me through that was a very strong statement on my behalf. I read back now through what had transpired in the previous 2 and a half months and am amazed at myself that I could have made that statement and mean it. But I did. I was like Justin, I'd made a committment and I was f***ing sticking to it. He (not Justin) had made a committment too - but he didn't stick to it, just like he didn't stick to so many other 'promises'; I don't think he knows what committment is :(. Just like so many other times, in different areas of his life I guess - once the 'shininess' had dulled he was ready to move on. Time proved that true, even though it wasn't what he had been saying for the prior 10 or so weeks.