Just a Little Bit Longer...

Oh Won't You Staaayyyy....
Another dream of him one or two nights ago, and it's definately not cos of the nicotine patches cos I haven't worn a patch for over a week:

I'm returning something of his to him (no idea what it is/was), it should be a short visit, but he keeps on delaying me, telling me things about the business, how it's going, keeps continuing on the conversation more than is required; it's obvious to me that he wants me to stay there simply so he can talk with me.

The dream reminded me particularly of his visit in November. After receiving SMS's and phone call(s) from her (after he'd been here for hmm about 2 hours I think) he said he should leave because he feared that she was going to come over (her having been here for a visit by herself earlier that same evening) if he stayed, and he didn't want there to be yelling and shouting, particularly because my children were home. (see note below)

As we walked down the driveway toward his car he received another message. He stopped walking and said something along the lines of 'she's not coming now', he half turned (as if to head back down the drive to the house), but I just kept walking forward.

He wanted to stay longer.

Note: She later commented that he obviously didn't care whether her children were home or not as he often yelled and shouted at/with her (ie fighting) when her children were there. Interesting isn't it - does it mean he doesn't care whether her kids hear/see them fight, or that he didn't want my children to have a negative experience of her. I think both are possible; in regards to the first he most likely just doesn't even think about it ... he just isn't a people person and wouldn't even think of it, particularly in the heat of the moment, and from what they've both said their arguments are rather heated.

No Bike Ride Today
Whilst I was very proud of myself in that I set my alarm half an hour earlier last night, so I could get up early and decide whether to go for a ride, I was NOT proud of myself when I woke this morning LATE as I'd forgotten to actually turn the alarm ON doh!

Grrr I dislike starting my day rushing; it was a portent for the rest of the day - yucky yucky yucky.