Your body wont let you hide the fact that you're stressed; even if you don't feel stressed/are good at 'hiding/dampening/repressing' it, it will come up somewhere.
The rash on my eyelid has worsened over the last few weeks. When it first appeared ..hmm.. over two years ago ... it was just a slightly red itchy patch, now almost half my eyelid is red and swollen, the skin itchy and dry. It used to be barely noticeable, but not now; even my 17 year old son noticed it the other day .... do you know how often/closely 17 year old boys look closely enough at their mum to notice that kind of thing? Not often.
The inside of my glasses is constantly covered with eyelid dandruff.
The steroid ointment I use for my similar-but-worse elbow patch can't be used on my eyelid (something about how thin and sensitive eye-skin is). Will definitely have to ask the doc what I can do about this when I see her next. Previously she has suggested just using moisturizer, but it's doing nothing - in fact I think it's possible that it has helped spread it further across the skin. It's not an allergy to eye makeup cos I only wear mascara and the patch started higher up away from the lashes.
The elbow patch has been flaring again; the elbow patch is one of the few reasons I'm not looking forward to warmer weather when I'll be wanting to wear things that don't cover my entire arm. At least I can use the steroid ointment on that and get it under 'control' so it doesn't look so unsightly. Can only use it for two weeks at a time though.
I don't like to think that I'll be with these marks for the rest of my life - reminders of what has been, scars to remind me to not make the same mistake again - but sometimes it feels that way. I know, I have 'nothing' to complain about, they are so mild compared to what other people have. I guess it's just the knowing how you used to be, that these things didn't used to be there.
On the plus side I'm not over-smoking (as I call it) and I'm not losing weight, but I'd like to put a bit more on before summer comes so that I'll have a chance of buying a decent skirt. I weigh just enough more so that last seasons are tight, but not enough yet to fit into the next size without using a safety pin (like I have to at the moment in my size 10 trousers).
Oh well, that's my 'moan moan and carry on' for now.
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2 comments:
You write well and you had me with you until you decided near the that what you were talking wasn't interesting enough and you let the post finish without a real ending. What happend because of that is I was left with the thought that you are a 17-year-old without enough to talk about. A differnt ending sentence might have done the trick. Something like
"Oh well, perhaps I should consider the life s pirate--the patch would look good on me."
or
No big deal I stll have another eye.
Or whatever works with your personality.
Your readers want a satisfying conclusion to feel that they read this far for a reason. It's like the doggie treat of reading :)
You really do have a talent for writing a nice clear, warm writing voice that invites the reader to join you in a story.
smiles,
me-Liz
Thankyou for your comment Liz, it made me :) (smile).
There was more to the entry but I deleted it before posting (long story - read more of the blog); thus the lack of 'conclusion'.
I find it curious when people comment on my writing 'style', mainly because I don't think I have a style. All the same it's very pleasing to hear that my writing is inviting to the reader (even though it's written for me rather than for the reader), so thankyou!
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