Happy Dance (or .. How Small is my Life)

Firstly, I'm ok. I know yesterdays' post was depressing, but I don't feel depressed - it's just a fact/how things are. Maybe my conclusion was wrong, but somehow I don't think so .... things are pretty shite at the moment due to being in limbo land as far as the legal matter is concerned. I may have a very hard decision to make very soon, but even after that I'm not certain that my 'life'/outlook on life will change dramatically.

Think if kinda comes back to something I've said before - I'm basically 'doing it for the kids', or everyone else; not for me. So what, I'm here, I'm doing 'it'.


Anyway................. I was *almost* doing a happy dance after I got home from work tonight, but before that ...

Tomorrow
I'm not sure whether to be happy or anxious that the boss will be back tomorrow. Glad cos it means I'm not *it* any more and the problems will no longer be mine and mine alone. Anxious cos he will not be a happy chappy about things that have occurred whilst he was away (thankfully none of them any of our fault though).

Had knots and uncomfy tummy feelings on the way to work this morning, that's never happened before. Didn't get a period yet either so I'm fairly resigned that it (and Friday) was due to work :( Not good. Hoping it goes away after tomorrow.

Burning Money :(
Bit the bullet today and made an appt to see my lawyer in the coming weeks. Irks me dreadfully to burn money like that but I don't see that I have any option - so I do what I have to do (as usual!).

Finally - The Happy Dance! (or How Small is my Life)
Onto more positive things though ... I was most pleased this afternoon on my return to my abode from the workplace.

There waiting for me was a grinning Mistyqee behind which was hiding ..

my new vaccuum cleaner!!!

Yup, see how small my life is - my day is made by receiving a new vaccuum cleaner - at least I can still laugh at myself!

Bought online two weekends ago and it's here already, thought it would take longer (had to come from the opposite side of the country to get here). Short read of the manual and the test run went well .... have decided to donate my old one (which does carpets well, of which I have few, but does very poorly on the tools - which I need the most!) to work, since the one there blew up two weeks ago.

Now I have to wait for a break in the teenage-tv-viewing so I can at last vaccuum the couch :) (no, I'm not a manic cleaner - honest, it bugs me though when I want to clean something and can't for the lack of tools!)