Once More Into the Fray..

Back into the fray of the ickiness tomorrow.

When presented with my options I must remember not to be me.

I must remember that me is softer than is for my own good, too compromising, that doing what seems to be being fair to the other party ends up, as it has done in the past, putting me in a worse position; that the other party hasn't been fair to me.

Doing nothing isn't an option as it gives him what he wants, and nothing of what I want; *that* isn't fair.

I need to remember that it is not wrong or unjust, or unethical, for me to pursue what is legally due to me. It is not my fault that he has perhaps not managed his own finances well.I have been compassionate, I have been willing to negotiate, I have offered more leniancy than another borrower would have.

I need to remember that I *do* have the resources to see this through, if absolute need be.

I need to remember *he* has made this worse than it needed to be; he has made our involvement drag on for a year that it needn't have.

Tomorrow I need to be the new me.

I need to remember to read this again in the morning.