Suicide

Reasons why we don't want to live ..
On Enough Rope tonight Andrew was interviewing Diane Cilento (famous for a number of things, one being that she was married to Sean Connery when he played James Bond) they spoke briefly of her attempted suicide.

I related very much to what she said:
(not verbatim)

"... when you've got no where to go, when you can't move ... like in chess when there's no square to go to .. when you are blocked from moving"

The Meaning of Life ...
The previous guest had been John Anderson (former deputy Prime Minister of Aust) who accidentally killed his sister when he was 14 (playing backyard cricket, he hit a ball, it hit her in the neck and she died). This is when he became a Christian. His comment was along the lines of "it was either that or continue living an empty meaningless life".

I could relate to this comment too ... as I have sometimes, in the meanderings along the pathways in my mind and the contemplation of my current life, come to envy those who have strong faith in their religion. I guess that's because I still fail to grasp the reason why I'm here, the purpose of my life; and I know that, for some, they find the answers to those questions in religion.

Sometimes I envy them. But that doesn't mean it's for me. And so I go on with my meagre little life, trying not to navel gaze too often - sometimes it's better to simply not ask the question.