Weird..

It's very odd but now and then when I light a cigarette it smells like marijuana! I've tried it once in my life (didn't seem to do anything for me) and only buy tailor-mades (ie packets) from retail outlets, so I'm sure there's no mary-jane there, but still, every now and then one will smell like it.

My Mothers Day
My kids spoiled me rotten on Mothers Day. Wonderful cooked breakky in bed (BIIIIGGGG treat) and a gorgeous orchid plant AND they bought me a combo DVD/VCR unit.
That last prezzie was purchased out of guilt, I know this for a fact. A few months ago I agreed to have the playstation 'modded' so that my son could buy a game from the US that wasn't going to be available here for months. The playstation was also our DVD player. About a month after the mod had been done I tried to have a movie night with my daughter (during the recent school holidays), but it wouldn't play DVD's anymore. My son felt dreadfully guilty about it cos it was he who wanted the playstation modded.
I had been thinking of buying one of these combo units for about 6 months as my VCR is getting pretty long in the tooth and I didn't want to buy a DVD unit on its own and have yet another set of cables to deal with. My son was aware of this - and so was the impetus for my amazing Mothers Day prezzie.

Others' Mothers Day
I didn't spoil my mum rotten on Mothers Day. I haven't 'celebrated' Mothers Day in her honour since I left my husband due to her behaviour and actions at that time. I'm sure I will have written about it in this blog somewhere in the past and am not going to reiterate the circumstances here; suffice to say I have not felt that we had a mother/daughter relationship during that period.

Due to recent events that is changing slightly, but I still did not feel inclined to do anything for her on Mothers Day. I do have a small pang about it though, as this year she wouldn't have reecieved anything from her other daughter either (due to the events following my grans death and the business with the will).

The issues with my sister have undoubtedly had an impact on, and influenced to at least some degree, the improvement in the relationship between my mum and me, which is kinda sad really - why should her relationship with one impact on her relationship with the other (when the two don't have anything to do with each other).

She recently said to me that what she had done/ what she had thought at the time (when I left my husband) had been proven to be wrong; but she did not apologise to me. I don't know if I would have felt any differently if she had, but it would have been something.

She is going to hospital for an operation on her back next week (the previous procedure hasn't had the desired effect). I hope it goes well, I hope she will be fine, but I worry that it wont be and that she wont be the same again.

Legal Stuff
... is continuing. Next step is very close, then it will be real hard decision time for me. I'm not looking forward to it.