(yes, still writing could where most would put a should ... it's just one of those little brain tricks)
Well, it has been an interesting week, and good things are meant to come in threes - I've had two, so maybe a lottery ticket purchase would be a good idea.
Unexpected Things Aren't Always Bad
I was contacted out of the blue this week by someone from my past. We met in a group situation about 9 years ago and spoke fairly briefly. Before that it was probably 10 or more years since I'd seen the person, and on that occassion I believe we didn't have any lengthy conversation either (again, it was a group situation). Before that we went to school together for 5 years.
Yes, someone from my past of 30 years ago.
I have very definite memories of this person, for particular reasons. Memories that come in and out of the great filing cabinet of memories from time to time over the years. They are not bad memories.
We are perhaps going to meet up; chew the fat and swap stories of our lives' journeys.
I wonder whether we will like the people that we meet; the people we have become.
It is with some trepidation that I write about this as they found me via my website and now have been reading the blog (with my permission). Maybe after reading it they wont want to meet anymore; if that's the case then c'est la vie. I am who I am, I have been whom I have been.
Which leads me on to ....
(that was Good Thing number one, by the way)
Navel Gazing
(well it wasn't actually my navel I was gazing at as I was driving at the time, but you get the idea)
In replying to the unexpected e-mail I commented on my grey hairs, and I guess that might be what started this train of thought as I drove home from work one evening this week, or maybe it was the possibility of meeting with this person, anyway ...
"What does the fact that I don't dye my hair anymore, wear very little make-up, don't bother too much about how I dress (other than when I'm at work) say about me?"
The train lead me down the following path:
1. Psychologists/Therapists and the like would no doubt say that it shows low self esteem; that I don't take care of myself, that I don't take pride in my appearance because I feel I am unworthy.
2. Alternately (yeah there goes the Libran in me, must have inherited it from Mum, who is a Libran) there are those who might say it shows a strong sense of self; that I am sufficiently confident in myself to not have to 'enhance' my appearance. (*Not* meaning that I think I'm so stunningly gorgeous that I don't need make-up, more that I just think I'm ok as I am au naturale)
3. Or then there's the theory that I just don't give a damn anymore. If people don't like how I look that's their problem. (Maybe 3 is the same as 2?)
4. Or maybe I'm just a lazy bugger.
5. Or maybe it's because I'm 'just not looking' (ie for a partner).
I decided that 2, 3 and 4 probably all apply, in differing doses. I guess I have to entertain the idea that maybe there's some 5 in there as well, but if I were to go out to meet someone I'd probably go au naturale; I'm not into making myself something I'm not and putting up a false front; so maybe we can wipe 5 out too.
Don't get me wrong; for the right occassion I can dress up to the nines like the best of them, but those occassions are very few and far between these days.
Good Thing Number Two ..No, Not Good - Fantastic, Stupendous, Fabulous!!
Chatting on the phone with mum tonight (she's doing ok, not fantastic, but ok) we got around to talking about the will. She told me what she is going to do with some of the money .... she's going to help me finish off my entertaining area - build the pond and the bali hut/gazebo as my birthday present this year!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (can you tell I'm excited??)
I'd just about given up hope of ever getting those parts done - or at least not until I retired and got my superannuation money. And now it's (most likely) going to happen.
Oh My Fictional Deities!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't believe it.
She was thrilled at my thrilled reaction :)
So yeah, that was Good Thing number two ...
So Tell Me....
I'm curious, if you were about to meet someone you hadn't really seen for about 30 years, and you knew they had a blog, and you were about to meet them, would you read their blog? or would you wait until after you'd met?
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I would probably read their blog, but try not to let it be very important. The meeting is the important thing.
As for women who go natural, I am in favor of it, though I must admit that I like fairly long hair on women. I say just be yourself.
The best way to spend the holidays is by participating in a raffle or by purchasing Lottery Tickets, because you never know when you will win. I am sure it will certainly bring a smile on your face.
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