Insomnia

Sleep is eluding me once again. They say if you aren't alseep withing x amount of time you should get up and do something else. So that is what I'm doing. If I write some if down maybe it will help.

Thursday night
Went to bed even more confused than I had been earlier in the evening. His words in my head, body reeling with intense physical sensations, I let them to happen, allow them to run their course, and subside. The words run through my head, I can't sleep.

Confusion. Have I misinterpreted? Some parts don't seem to go with other parts. I re-read, re-read, re-read. Understanding eludes me; I find no clarity.

Friday brings more e-mail. By Friday night I am certain I have misinterpreted the mornings' message. It concerns me as to why this is - was I too focussed on myself? Have I not given enough thought to the other?

I have no idea what I am doing, what I am walking in to. At least it feels as though I am walking however, not running.

I will try again for sleep.