The Nature of the Fire

It seems important to me to try determine the nature of the fire.

Is it lust?
Is it infatuation?
Is it - (no, I'm not just avoiding using the L word here, it would seem to me far too premature to be considering love).

Lust
I looked up lust, it's about physical/sexual gratification. Most certainly there is an element of this happening ... desire for sexual gratification from/with him.

But I don't think that's all there is to it .. else why would I be thinking that all I want to do is go over there and lay on his couch, in his arms and watch his DVD of a fire. Nothing sexual about that.

I don't find myself physically attracted to him - it's not like looking at a hunk in a magazine and thinking OMG I want to get it on with him! This is another reason why I don't think it's all about lust.

Can you be in lust with someones' mind, with 'who' they are - that doesn't sound like lust to me.

Infatuation
Infatuation is generally assigned as something that happens to teenagers. Obviously we are not teenagers - not now. But we were teenagers all those years ago, when we were last in regular contact. Yes I had a crush on him back then. Did he have one on me - I don't know. Is this just that teenage infatuation carried over?
Initially (ie at the beginning) I think that is a possibility, but I find myself thinking that it's unlikely to have continued to be the case.

Something Else
Something else .... what kind of something else??? Someone of like mind in some ways, someone whom it would be good (for many different reasons) to have in my life for a long time to come? (He has said a few times that he is looking for a friend for the long haul, not just a day in the sun - which kinda rules out the lust thing I guess).

(Just hopped back up to the lust part and added the bit about being in lust with someones' mind/who they are - perhaps what the something else is).

There is a strong feeling that he will 'look after' me. Is this what is attracting me, and how is that defined (is it defined? is it anything at all?)

Is this that something that I create in people - the feeling that they want to look after me?

arrrghhh round and round .. but I don't think it's just lust, and I don't think it's just infatuation. It could be more dangerous because it isn't those things :(