One Week Ago

One week ago I awoke to a beautiful wonderful day.

Today it is grey and raining.

Although the sun has been shining the other days I barely noticed it.

I have started to look back at the conversation on that fateful Sunday night; I'm trying to see where I/we went wrong.

Did we avoid talking of the consequences, did we avoid saying we shouldn't do it, did we talk about the things that would stop us from losing control.

I will look again tonight and see what I find.



And all of me wonders what is happening for him, how he is. I feel desperate to know - but also know that I cannot know. Is there an enforced (short) separation for them so both can do some thinking .... if so he is also alone :(. Is the pain and confusion becoming less for him - I hope so.

I so much want to comfort him and share with him what I know of these situations, to try help.

But I cannot.