Reflections Part II

The Biggest Question of Them All
And so it is that the ponderings in my last entry brought me back again to that place I've been before ... to be happy.

And I start to think 'what would make me happy'?

No sooner has the thought passed across my mind that I realise the question in totally wrong, the totally wrong question to be asking.

I have realised this in the past .. when I commented here that it wasn't right that I be happy because of someone else, that instead I am the one who should make me happy.

And I realise now how true that is. The question of 'what would make me happy' indicates looking to external things or people to create the happiness.

This kind of happiness is bound to be short lived. Things deteriorate/are taken away, people change and move on from our lives and die. It's not right that our happiness be bound to these things. If we depend on external factors to make us happy then we are bound to become unhappy when those things are no longer present in our lives.

We have to make ourselves happy. I have to make me happy.

No, even that is not right - I have to be happy.

And so the right question comes to me - how do I make me happy, how do I be happy?

And the answer comes - by being true to myself, by being happy with me.


WOW - and now I have a whole new bunch of stuff on which to ponder, because to be true to myself I must know who I am. This, I think, is the hardest question of them all.

Maybe it wasn't possible for me to get to this point before due to part of me not being 'present'. Now that I am re-united and whole I may be able to make some headway. I can only hope!

Postscript
It seems I've taken a rather circuitious route to get to this point, and it feels/sounds rather like Buddism in some ways - having done some reading about karma etc due to the prior post and other comments. I shy away from delving into that however - these are things that others cannot teach you - that one has to come to realise for oneself.

Funny, I've never thought of myself as a spiritual person, but this seems to have all the hallmarks of it.