Another Dream

I had another dream last night - this time a chance meeting with TB. Wow, where did that come from?

It was some kind of school or fete thing, I passed him and recognized him, a flash of that puzzles 'where do I know you from' look passed over his face. Later saw him watching some children do something (had the impression one of the children was his son .. only about 4 or 5 years old) and we talked for a bit - about what I have no idea.

Learnings

And so to a list of what I have learned about myself this time:

* I have an attachment issue - I don't attach. Maybe the thought that 'everyone leaves' is too strong within me
* Related to above - my heart is still closed :(, I didn't/couldn't let him in
* I'm only a part-timer, and that doesn't suit everyone
* I'm not strong enough to hide things that aren't useful for someone else to see :(
* I guess I'm just a cold-hearted damaged bitch :(

Just had a strange dream

Took the train to Mandurah, had a smallish plastic car under my arm that was the car I drive in town. Met up with ex. Amazing house, they had just finished having the alabaster done. Mum and dad and woman living with him and children, including two babies. Had the Falcon. He was supposed to drive us to somewhere - half way home, but in Ocean Keys ppl move your car to another spot if it's in the way. Saw my cousin from Canbera driving a flash sports car. Found out ex had won a 30, or 60, or 90 million dollar compensation payment for a minor brain damage injury whilst he was helping his father build this house.

I was furious.