Still Alive

An overseas friend enquired today whether I was still alive as I had stopped posting on my blog some time ago and there had been some question as to whether I had a serious health issue ..


So I'm here to say I am still alive although not very visible in the cyberworld these days.

Made this in the last two weeks for my daughter - she had a fancy dress 21st party to go to and had been given the letter 'V', so chose to be a vampire. The vampire dress goes well with the black cloak I had made for her previously.

Enjoy the pics. May write more later.

Work/Life

I am having a lot of challenges at the moment with my work/life balance - I don't have the balance right.

I was thinking this through the other day and my new favourite saying at the moment (other than within my boss's hearing distance) is that we have this all arse about...

Work should fit in around our life.

Life shouldn't have to fit in around our work.

And Now Here is The News

Today it is two months since I smoked an entire cigarette.

Today an ANZAC Day service was held in France for the first time ever, at Villers Bretenneux - where my Great Grandfather John David Plummer died in WWI

Dreams

I've had some dreams recently that I wish to record ...

Most of the dreams I'm remembering are dreamt between the time when I first wake (often around 5 or 6 am) and the time I get up.

Responsibilty
I change jobs in the middle of the day, and am settling in at my new desk.

My mother appears at the side of my desk with my dog (deceased in real life) on a leash and some weird wax construction around his mouth with a hole at the end so he can still eat, breath, pant etc. She admonishes me for having forgotten to pick him up from doggy day care. Much discussion about the was thing around his mouth.

I think this dream was about responsibility.

Rats
I thought (in the dream) there was a rat in my kitchen. I anxiously/dreadingly kneeled down and looked under the fridge expecting to see a pair of eyes looking back at me, however there are two dead rats under the fridge. Both have been dead for some time as there is a dark patch on their bellies and a pool of (what I assume is) body fluids under and around each rat. There is also a mouse caught in a trap. I dispose of the dead mouse body.

Not sure what this is about. Rats to me indicate something gnawing away, something unpleasant. Dream dictionary indicates perhaps jealousy (amongst other things). So perhaps the fact these rats are dead means these things are over for me now.

Dream dictionary indicates catching a mouse in a trap signifies something good in regards to finances.
(It was just a day or so before this dream that I contacted my lawyers asking for the rest of my money in their trust account be sent back to me)

Kiwi Guy
This morning I dreamt about Kiwi Guy, for the first time. (Sigh, and I thought I had been making progress in that regard- having recently banished him) Started off there was a neighbourhood BBQ like they've been advertising on the radio/TV - lots of cops around cooking the BBQs but it was in the street of hmm Northbridge I think. I asked someone if they knew where there was a second hand bookshop.

Somehow I loose my wallet/handbag. Whilst there are many cops around I don't approach any of them about it.

Next I'm at a childs' birthday party where there are a lot of (ie mostly) adults in attendance . Kiwi Guy is there & I tell him about my purse being stolen. He grabs the phone from a teenager and makes them get off the phone so I can report my stolen wallet. Next thing I remember I'm having sex with Kiwi Guy and thinking of asking him to move in with me. Somehow we are outside (think the sex started off in the back of a ute), not quite on the lawn of the house where the childs party is being held. The adults start to come out of the house (they're leaving) we are partly covered by a sheet. Someone comments on the (generous) size of Kiwi Guys appendage.

Wore the batteries out a fair bit when I woke up from that one; one was not enough.

What Do You Mean, It Can't Be February Already!?

Sheeesh it's already February!?!? How did that happen?

Revelation
I had a bit of a revelation this week.

It's to do with the being-authentic-to-myself theme that has been playing within me for quite some time now.

I keep thinking that I want to be more intuitive, and to live more from my heart than in/from my head. I set this up as the underlying theme of the last kinesiology session I had.

You know what? There is it right there in front of me - I *am* a head person. That is the truth of me, and here I am keeping on wanting it to be different. In hanging onto that wanting to be different I am trying to not be who I am.

I am a head person, not a heart person.

(Doesn't mean I don't have a heart mind you!)

Metaphysical
In the second half of last year I became drawn to metaphysical matters. I undertook Reiki I training and have received a couple of kinesiology sessions. I read some books about crystals, chakras, The Journey, Way of the Peaceful Warrior, The Diamond in Your Pocket. I went to the Conscious Living Expo in November and had my aura and chakra's photographed and interpreted.

I find this an interesting path, and wonder at times whether this is a path I should follow a little further by undertaking some training. It feels as though it would be a very pleasant thing for this to become my profession. however I fear that it may be a passing fad/phase for me, and therefore am hesitant to invest (what feels like) a lot of funds in this direction.

I am attending a Gong Concert in March, and hope to attend a session regarding Tibetan Singing Bowls.

This Year
I will do my Reiki II training.
I will seek and gain more balanced, less stressful employment.
I will stop poisoning myself with cigarettes.
I will exercise/ride my bike almost every week.
I will control my finances.
I will undertake some other course/s. Undecided whether the head or the heart will decide which.
I will become more at peace with myself.